“I Can’t Breathe”: The Watery-Character of Creative Awareness
Quite a number of these posts suggest practices oriented toward awakening – not simply awakening awareness but rather awareness of awareness. The latter is an awakening of spiritual- soul-consciousness. The former only awakens new cognitive information, though the practices are oriented, at the level of cognition, to awaken confusion. The practices first awaken confusion, and the work concerns remaining con-fused, that is, remaining with the fusion of the known and the unknown.
Remaining with the union of the known and the unknown together, resolves at a different level than the con-fusion. Usually, the con-fusion resolves through cognitive awareness, stated in terms of saying what happens with a practice, which is a cognitive conclusion, stated in terms of the “already known”. The relief felt is felt as an opening, when it is actually a closing.
Take the classical meditative practice of “watching the breath”. In doing this practice, there comes a moment when we become aware of the breath—that is, breath-awareness happens, which in itself is only new information, particularly when one tries to describe what happens, how there was a feeling of being aware of something – for example, the in-out of breath that occurs so spontaneously. But, this is cognitive awareness. If one goes on and continues to practice, there comes a moment when the breath is experienced as One, rather than an in-and-out. A different awareness. The first is awareness of the breath. The second is breath-awareness.
Cognition stays more within the air element – you know, how we say one who stays in the head is ‘airy’, not-here, out of body. (read the word “air-element” here as a metaphor – that is a border realm – in and out of body simultaneously). However, if one stays in the metaphor of this kind of consciousness and does not conclude with saying “it was like this” or “like that”, then a water-element consciousness awakens. (Again, a metaphor, but then, “what’s a meta-for). This consciousness is when consciousness mirrors consciousness – that is, awareness of awareness. This kind of consciousness can be spoken of as “dying into water”, the water-element, the reflective, mirroring element, the Mary element, the realm of creative-receptivity.
Receptive-creativity because we have to give up, give in, yield, surrender, and be within the mirroring that characterizes spiritual-soul-consciousness.
The current metaphor of consciousness within the collective realm is “I can’t breathe.” It signals an awakening of spiritual-soul-consciousness and requires going through death-awareness.