(image - The Red Book by C.G. Jung)
The Highest Calling of the Human Being is Care for Earth
Once the mind clears of the daily onslaught of distraction, one question arises: What is the purpose of this time of initiation? Initiation into what? The question must be asked from the heart rather than the mind, for mind is the very center for the attack of the distractions of the day – political, oh my gosh! – technological – yikes! – economic – good Lord! – health – try to get away from that one! – relational – pure turmoil!
If you place attention at the very center of the heart, eventually, with faithfulness of doing, a sensorially felt spark of light announces. Once noticed, it does not go away, though it requires daily tending. A sensing by the heart of the center of the heart. More than desire, more than longing, more than ‘feeling’. More, here, means stronger, a remarkable strong receptive force of awaiting that can begin the unfolding of an age of kindness.
Receptive force: the very opposite of the kind of forcefulness we know of, the forcefulness of the will – fiery, impulsive, singularly oriented, urgent, demanding. Not so with the heart. If the receptive heart is not attended, it will seem to disappear, such is the way of reticence. The very nature of this force is reticence, so it will not be converted into urgency to come forth by our wishing it would be more ‘forceful’. This primary quality of heartfulness, when we listen, teaches the simultaneous method and result of this moment of world initiation.
The word, “moment” here also has to be re-imagined. It is a “world-moment”, which needs to be felt in terms of duration rather than belonging to the linear stream of time. A major part of the non-effort effort of the heart concerns revealing to us the manner in which the spirit/soul intertwines with the inner-physical. This two-in-one - spirit/soul and physical, expresses in the world as a soft emanation rather than a strong shout. A lingering moment, perhaps lasting for ages.
Yes, we are moving from one age to another, and that won’t and can’t happen like clicking the internet button or shooting yet another rocket into the vast “nowhere”, which is only an emblem of where we already are. And it also cannot be an overlay, a kind of wallpapering of the age being exited. The wallpaper has to come off, and it feels like being skinned, when attention focuses on the outer and material events but feels like a cleansing, a purification happening when attention remains within the heart. Purification here means simplification, immediacy, being one with itself rather than something to be used.
This initiation moment transforms the age of the love of power into the age of the power of love. It is a change from the cosmology of expansion on the way to dropping of the edge, into the cosmology of care, the cosmology of kindness.
And, the transitioning draws us deeply into the revelation of Earth as the soul of spirit-soul presence, the guide, who is not a guide showing us how to ‘get out of here’, but rather how to ‘get into the here’.
Back to the central Light of the heart. Light that is also feeling, the Light-as-feeling – of radiance seeking Radiance, becoming more than the inner heart-Light, does not hide away ‘inside’ the heart as it seems to be doing. That reticence-presence of the inner Light is the human aspect of the radiance of the Spiritual Earth. We are Earth’s consciousness, existing in the physicalness of our Being and as her primary quality of emanation. What in the world does that sentence indicate? Whew!
There is a wondrous rose bush in the backyard. The blooming roses are not only expressions of Earth-as-Beauty, that is, the autopoesis (that is self-creating) of Earth creating Herself, but an even more subtle dimension of this creating herself. The roses perfume. They are far more than natural “things” that smell. Oh my, how paltry is such a way of speaking! They are Earth as presence AND as emanation. Emanation means the every-moment continuing presence of creation happening.
Earth and her expressions are not already all present, done, created, which is the way of seeing them through the lens of the love of power. The age of seeing Earth as already done, thankfully, has now ended, though we have a quite perverse perception of that reality – as if we have to hurry up and use it up completely before it disappears.
Earth is the missing Creatrix. We know only of the “Creator” and live by that cosmological story of His doing the creation, with Wisdom, the feminine of all creating, who, by the way, He is said to have created and stands by his side as a kind of advisor. God as “He” reveals a lack of imagination on our part. It is rather ONE in two aspects – the creator/revealer as “here is creation”, and the creatrix/emanator as “creating happening continually”.
I KEEP SAYING THAT THIS TIME OF CIVILIZATIONAL BREAKDOWN SIGNALS AN INITIATION MOMENT. “INITIATION” IS ONE OF THOSE CHARGED WORDS AND HOLDS THE POSSIBILITY OF HUGE FANTASY INFLATION. INITIATION CERTAINLY DOES NOT JUST HAPPEN. IT IS LIKELY THAT THE OPENING OF THE “POTENTIA” OF THIS MOMENT WILL GO BY COMPLETELY UNRECOGNIZED, AS THERE ARE NECESSARY PREPARATIONS THAT NEED TO BE ENGAGED WITH FULL CONSCIOUS AWARENESS.
IT IS CERTAINLY SO, THAT IS, OBVIOUS, THAT THE OPENING OF FULL, INTEGRAL CONSCIOUSNESS ENTWINED WITH SENSORY AWARENESS REMAINS NOT ONLY OBSCURED BUT HIGHLY CONFUSED PRIMARILY BY FORCES THAT USE THIS MOMENT TO INITIATE BECOMING EVER MORE UNAWARE OF AWARENESS ITSELF.
THE POSSIBILITY OF AWAKENING ALREADY BECOMES MORE POSSIBLE THE MOMENT THAT WE BODILY FEEL THAT COUNTER-FORCES KEEP BUILDING ON MORE AND MORE ADDITIONS TO THE PRISON OF THIS ULTRA-MATERIALISTIC CIVILIZATION. AS ALEXANDER SOLZHENITSYN SAID: “WE CANNOT, IN ORDER TO LIVE, NOT LIVE.” WE PRESENTLY ACCEPT AND EVEN WELCOME “NOT LIVING” AS LIVING.
THESE COUNTER-FORCES OF LIVING SUBVERT DEVELOPING SUBTLE SENSING BY CLAIMING THAT WHAT DOES NOT BELONG TO THE ‘THEORY’ OF MATERIALISM BELONGS TO “CONSPIRACY THEORY”, THAT IS, SOMETHING UNTRUE, AND A THREAT TO THE PREVAILING PUBLIC NARRATIVES. THE COUNTER-FORCES PERSUADE US TO BECOME UNSURE OF WHAT WE FEEL, WHAT WE SENSE, AND WHAT WE KNOW.
THREE INTERFERENCES TO AWAKENING TO AN INNER PLACE OF TRUE FREEDOM WHERE SENSORY AWARENESS OPENS INTO DEPTH ARE:
THE TRAP OF MATERIALISM HAS GONE WAY BEYOND THE NECESSARY SPIRITUAL (YES, SPIRITUAL) MOVEMENT INTO MATERIALITY. THE SPIRITUAL PURPOSE OF MATERIALISM WAS TO EDUCATE THE SENSES INTO BEING ABLE TO EXPERIENCE THE INVISIBLE VISIBLY. INITIATION DOES NOT HAVE TO DO WITH DISEMBODIED VISIONS BUT INCREASING THE CAPACITIES OF SENSING WHOLLY. THAT DID NOT HAPPEN; INSTEAD, PATHOLOGICAL ATTACHMENT TO THE MULTIPLICITY OF MATERIAL THINGS (INCLUDING IDEAS) HAPPENED.
INITIATION DOES NOT LEAD TO SOME KIND OF IMAGINED BENEFITS – SUCH AS ‘THIS BELIEF WILL SAVE YOU”, WHICH BELONGS TO RELIGIONISM, NOR DOES IT BELONG TO THE CLICHÉ – “LISTEN TO THE SCIENCE”, WITHOUT TELLING THE FULL PROCESS OF THAT SCIENCE, NOR DOES IT BELONG TO THE PULL TOWARD THE FANTASIED BENEFITS OF BECOMING MORE AND MORE DISEMBODIED.
CONTEMPLATE THE WORD “SALVATIONAL”. SUCH A VIEW ALWAYS, ALWAYS LEADS US AWAY FROM WHAT IS PRESENT AND THE DEPTH OF WHAT IS PRESENT. EVERYTHING IS ALREADY HERE. WE DO NOT NEED TO BE SAVED. EVERYTHING DOES NOT HAVE TO ‘GET BETTER’, BE ‘FASTER’, ‘MAKE YOU MORE EFFECTIVE” OR MORE “EFFICIENT’, “MORE ATTRACTIVE”, “MORE COMFORTABLE” OR, “HAVE MORE OPINIONS” (THOUGH ALL OF THESE DO INCREASE FEAR). THE WORD “SALVATION” AND ITS ACCOMPANYING UNCONSCIOUS FANTASIES ALSO INHERENTLY SEPARATE THE ADHERENTS TO ANY OF THESE “ISMS” FROM EVERYONE ELSE EXCEPT THE “SAVED”. YOU ARE SOMEHOW “BEHIND” IF YOU DO NOT ACCEPT THOUGHTLESS THOUGHTS. THE SEPARATION INCLUDES THE FANTASY THAT “WE ARE BETTER THAN THE REST.”
BECOMING SENSORIALLY PRESENT INCLUDES, THEN, THE RECOGNITION THAT WE CANNOT CREATE HUMANS, BUT IT IS POSSIBLE TO CREATE IMITATION HUMANS. WHEN YOU FEEL THAT YOU ARE UNDER THE FORCE SOMETHING MAKING YOU INTO WHAT YOU ARE NOT, KNOW THAT THERE IS A “MASTER PLAN” GOING ON, AND SUCH A SCENARIO IS DEMENTED, IT IS THE PSYCHOTIC PLOY OF THOSE WHO FEAR WE WILL RECOGNIZE EARTH AS THE SPIRITUAL-PRESENCE OF WHOM WE ARE ASPECTS O. THE SPIRITUAL EARTH CAN BE DIRECTLY KNOWN THROUGH PRESENCE, DEEPENING, NOTICING OUR BELONGING WITH EARTH CREATING HERSELF AS BEAUTY. WE ARE NOT HERE TO SAVE OR TO BE SAVED, BUT FOR THE MAKING OF BEAUTY.
Living with Electric Demons
Welcome back to a place where humans are allowed to be humans with all our foibles, a place that resonates with all of Life.
I woke this morning, early, laid quiet, awake, remembering the residuals of the night’s journey. Lately, these nightly excursions into the purity of consciousness punctuate the enclosure that savagely greets us from the moment the eyes open, casting a veil over the revelations of the night.
Yet, each instant of the day, everything noticed in the night-light comes forth from the soul meeting the ever-emerging Soul of the World. This bursting forth of Life also quickly clouds over in an instant and the Wholeness of things hides behind the falseness of the already- known.
What seems true of this particular time of anamnesis, troubled anamnesis, consists of the constantly felt almost electrical feeling of the inner body, a curtain in front of the curtain that programs the whole of experience.
I’ve been working to remove the electric curtain of the falsely known world. Inwardly, not with the mind, but with attention itself, utilizing it like an invisible blackboard eraser, starting anywhere, and wiping out the constructed world. Wiping away the streets, the telephone poles and wires, houses, highways, cars, cars, and cars, the elimination goes on and on – television, the screen this is being written on, cities, airplanes, “smart”-phones, stores, restaurants, grocery stores, Zoom, and the preying invisibilities too – government, the ocean of the daily untruth tsunami, the rush of unconscious people. And more and more.
Of it all, the revelatory wiping away the inner felt electronic currents announces as the most powerful. The currents seem to be presences, demon particles who are skilled in dividing themselves into such small pieces that who they are remains undetectable. We all have our demons, but please, Soul, let us be able to meet them with clarity.
By now, through practices, some introduced here, a partial but extremely delicate uncovering of truth-felt consciousness occurs through awakening sleeping heart desire with tapping the thymus. Almost dizzying, but present long enough to pour attention into the thinly felt veil of invisible light at the edges of body while inwardly saying the sacred word “Heart”, the living heart stirs into consciousness and meets the world in Her pristine realness. Like consciousness taking a shower.
Why won’t you stay, be here, we belong together, we create each other, don’t we? How can falsity possibly be more resilient than Her presence as delicate truth impinging the body?
It is the electric currents, the false light, the doubled light of the creative Light.
Light emanates from Light, becoming each instant, emanating and echoing within itself. The constant rhythmic light meeting its contraction back into itself births water and land, gemstones, color, plants and animals and humans. The essential rhythm of creating, just as any mother giving birth goes through -- pushing to bring forth life, contractions, and more visioning life… until the mystery of birth happens. The excruciating miracle of all creating. As for mothers, so also for the world.
The creating veils itself, inviting the intimacy of search, but now, in the collapsing world, the veil itself is veiled. Electricity pulses, alternating current, now revved up in frequencies upon frequencies, turning on the light, the bulb brightening a false and materialized illuminating of the world. Neon and bulbs and screens and satellites roboting us, obscure the deep womb of the happening of birthing of Life. Light as particled light, punctuates into vicious emotions, confusion, error, devouring the desire of creating wanting to happen, splitting the true atoms of every human. We become dulled, desiring the comfort of the already-created rather than going through psychic birth pains.
The inner work of erasing seems to be a primary event guiding further re-search. When the electric, sharp and edgy cuttings of the divided inner life are erased, a union of the body with Earth awakens. For a few moments the constant happening of Earth as one, intertwining each one with One, the way of Love occurs. How to sustain it? This has something to do with noticing that we are all one, undergoing moments of nodal gatherings that forgetfully separate.
THE NEW RECEPTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS
I hope you have worked some with the tapping of the thymus as an entry into heart consciousness and heart intelligence as an ongoing process. When consciousness-as-process rather than consciousness as an ongoing series of contents begins to be felt, receptivity awakens.
Heart awareness and intelligence, which is always embodied, as tapping the thymus shows, is also an entry into the inherent nature of heart as being relational, and the primary relation of heart awareness-intelligence, is that, through being embodied, an immediate connection with Earth occurs characterizing heart-awareness.
When we feel a kind of inner desire of an unknown sort at the place of the heart that has been tapped, another heart quality can also be noticed – the immediate sense of being within joy-sorrow. Noticing this quality of joy-sorrow brings about a tendency to refrain from wanting heart-experience just for the emotion of it. The sorrow within heart awareness is the presence of the grounding of Earth. It is not sorrow in our usual way of understanding sorrow. It is something like being just slightly pulled away from the heart (joy) while being within heart-awareness.
The receptivity of consciousness being described here is thus also suffering. The word “suffer” does not mean painful; the word itself means “to allow”. One aspect of the felt sense of inner sorrow accompanying heart-joy means allowing the comfortable sense of content consciousness as being in control to diminish. That is, usual content-consciousness is also our means of retaining a sense of control.
Now, in this time of pandemic, political chaos, a changing economy that can no longer retain the sense of being the main mode of materialistic control, the radical change in sensation brought about by masks making breathing more difficult, installing ongoing anxiety, separation from others that we can no longer see, only look at, not being able to affirm our embodiment by touch, demonstrations and violence, the separation between people, beginning to experience almost complete disembodiment through electronics and particularly 5G --- all install ongoing anxiety. It may be a little difficult to concentrate attention within the heart. At the same time, these impediments can also encourage more concentration within the heart and much more awareness of its importance as utterly crucial during this time. Fears have to be countered – we can’t just decide not to be in fear. It is the heart-awareness that takes us out of fear because it takes us into the cosmology of Love.
The sense-awareness of sorrow within the heart, being called to relinquish being in control of the contents of consciousness, pulls us deeper into embodiment and into Earth.
In this time, though, being heart present with its attendant sorrow, yielding again to being Earth-beings, begins to be felt as grieving. This is not our grieving; it is Earth’s grieving. The first act of the new receptive consciousness is to allow the embodied feeling of grief. We don’t want to begin to enumerate the reasons there may be grief in our lives – this is Earth’s grieving, which is very necessary to feel. Here’s how:
Enter into heart-awareness, tap the thymus, and be very present to the qualities of the bodily sensation that occurs. Then, take a walk outside – preferably at a place of direct presence of the feet and the earth – a park is fine, and maybe on the way back, see what happens while walking on cement.
While you are walking, place your attention at the soles of the feet. It is as if you are experiencing Earth from the bottom of the feet. Grief will intensify, almost unbearably so. It softens, a lot, quickly, when the walk is completed. What does remain is bodily, inwardly, heart-fully, now knowing with immediacy what is meant by entering receptive consciousness.
Consciousness-as-process does not entirely replace content-consciousness as an ongoing series of "the already formed". The abstract aspect does go away. We do begin to notice the immediacy of full presence. What now continues is an entwining of content consciousness inclining toward heart intelligence and heart intelligence receiving a kind of warm solidity so that heart awareness does not mean “mush”. This is stepping into the cosmology of Love.
These posts intend to be this kind of intertwining. Commenting can become a kind of practice for you – inwardly finding the way between commenting with ideas vs commenting with sweetness. Aliveness occurs between these opposites. (Also, posting a video comment showing something of the beauty of nature is a perversion of heart-earth awareness, as it is not experiencing the kind of awareness described; it is a digital double of it.)
Try to take this walk every day this week. Notice what occurs.
THE WAY IN AS THE WAY OUT
The germ theory of disease is itself diseased; “iatrogenic” is the word the great historian Ivan Illich called it many years ago when speaking of the overmedicalizing of life, which itself becomes the illness. We are now living that in spades.
Another view of disease emerging now, says that it is more important to look at the terrain of the disease. The analogy encompassing these two views is that of dying fish in dirty water. The germ theory of disease treats the fish, while the terrain view cleans the water.
In terms of the Coronavirus, rather than looking to control the virus, the terrain view says that we are starving from the kind of food we eat, and not just the literal food we eat; we are starving for true nourishment. And we are being poisoned, not just by the fact that almost all food is now contaminated with glysophate, that is, Roundup, but by being rounded-up into a conception of the world as a gulag.
The Coronavirus inserts the necessary intimate presence of death at the very heart of consciousness. It is not that we know, or we fear that we will die – that is old content consciousness. The new terrain consciousness is soul -consciousness, soul's inherent concern with death.
The purpose of “death-consciousness” (very different than the consciousness of death) is certainly not to become obsessed with death. To know that death is always with us, which is now being impressed into consciousness itself, has the purpose of awakening us to the wholeness of consciousness as being inherently open to and with the spiritual dimension – that is soul-consciousness. It has nothing, really, to do with “trying to be more spiritual.” It has to do with awakening to the fact that to be fully human is to inherently feel being spiritual-earthly beings.
The overwhelming prevalence, about to go down the toilet, of money-consciousness, obscures the fullness of consciousness itself as inherently “giving-receiving-giving”. This constant pulsation is the constant rhythm of living-dying-living, which is also the rhythm of the heart.
Money-consciousness makes the fullness of consciousness-as-terrain into over-concern with content-consciousness, and not noticing the terrain is polluted. Receiving what we truly need has now turned into the “diseased fish”, the effort to 'save' the economy of greed.
Diseased money – greed – which now characterizes the huge rich-poor polarity, has as its false purpose not having more things,but rather becoming totally forgetful of the constant presence of death. Death-awareness wipes away all literalness of consciousness, for example, the literalized consciousness that happiness comes from things and comfort.
The original soul significance of money as bringing us into relational consciousness has deviated into the fantasy of having life without death, or, turning death into that utterly surprising ending, a very strange view of death as the force of grinding down life to death – which is not its purpose. Death’s purpose is the awakening of consciousness.
These quite phenomenological observations – that is, just seeing what is happening without any intervention of a theory – suggest that we can undergo this current world-initiation into fuller consciousness – either the hard way or the heart way.
The hard way is that of trying to live in dirty water while inoculating all the illnesses -- physical, social, moral, economic, individual.
The heart way opens with feeling our helplessness – the way out of the over-medicalizing of life that is turning into the economy of surveillance – health control rather than health care.
Realizing helplessness opens into the new form of receptive-consciousness, replacing aggressive consciousness. As receptivity awakens, the center of consciousness moves from the brain to the heart, a move from mental knowing to heart-intelligence. Heart-intelligence is also soul awareness.
Soul awareness as it evolves in the way described here enters fully when we become inwardly aware that there Is not one crime in the world to which we are all not subconsciously prone. Within receptive, heart-intelligence, there exists an inherent grieving that grounds us – we are capable of every atrocity that we see happening. There is no moral superiority at the level of soul-awareness.
The grounding of grieving awakens Life-consciousness, that is, we are not fully alive with the partialness of content consciousness. It is time to change the dirty water.
Let’s start the revolution from being human to becoming conscious human beings – homo sapiens (sapiens means WISDOM!)
A Simple Way to Start
Several times a day, take the second two fingers of the right hand (left two if you are left-handed) and begin tapping your breast, right at the center, the heart-felt place of the body. Do this a number of times each day, inwardly noticing that when you do so, an inner sensation of a flow of desire, bodily felt right at that place occurs – this place is the place of the thymus, the inner dwelling place of Sophia, Wisdom. The desire is the desire of Sophia, of Wisdom stirring.
The word “thymus” comes from the Greek word “thumos” which means "anger, heart, soul, desire, life.” When the presence of Sophia is felt, Psyche who in the story of Eros and Psyche begins as a butterfly is felt. When you tap the thymus you feel the stirring of something like a butterfly.
A particularly interesting aspect of the word “thymus” is “anger”, which here means a strong impetus toward LIFE, bodily experienced at the place where no lie can enter.